Strangely so, I return to write here again. My sad attempts at informing the public of my travels this summer have enticed me to return to this place. So here I am.
Forbearing darkness that invites itself in without my consent, I am indubitably, wholly desperate for a greater flame than this that resides inside. The trees wither when water is scarce and similarly, I too. Your voice whispers bigger things: those that are weak without the hope of your peace. Let us shout it with each move and word, let them hear.
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And now, my thoughts drift towards that which I cannot understand. I toss and turn, with blindness and uncertainty. You truly have shown us what you require. And so, I come now, with absolute realization of my weariness. Truly, Lord, I do not understand. I believed a lie? Did I? Was it true?..Is is true? What shall I do? Shall I wait? What shall I wait for? Perhaps change is too slow for this weak heart of mind; perhaps patience is far from me. I only know this: that it is bitterly cold apart from you and I will walk with You again now. You will be my Hope again.
2 comments:
Hey, its Austin from French class. I saw your update on facebook about this blog. I really like your writing. The imagery and feel of it is intense.
Ally,
I don't know what you're going through, but the emotion in what you're saying fits the situation I'm in. Sometimes it seems like God is pulling us one way and then stops. I'm glad I could be of help this summer for your trips, because God has given you such a heart for missions and you spread His joy wherever you are. I'm praying for you and I hope that you continue in the path He has for you.
See you at MERGE in a few weeks!
-Abby
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